this night i had to marry someone i don’t love. i’m not sure, if i even like this person. it’s difficult. i don’t see this person very often, i’m always a little bit unnerved, when i see this person and it was the most cruel thing i’ve ever dreamt.
this person wanted to be kissed and i started crying and begging, that i’m in love with someone else and that my bf is the one i want to marry later in our future. but this person was so cold. so gruesome. stared at me with those big eyes full of madness. i didn’t kiss this person.
but it was only a dream. i’m so thankful for this. i don’t like the feeling of having no controll about myself, my doing and my life. and this was one of the biggest nightmares i’ve ever had. being not able to chose your love as partner…
(painting by john henry fuseli – the nightmare… it’s beautiful! he did a lot of paintings like this, you have to google him.)
